Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Auschwitz, Liberation..

This post is long... please don't sigh and turn away. It is long for a purpose. It is the story of a very couragous woman for whom I have immense respect and love. I only met her on one occasion but she had a huge impact on my life... today of all days her story should be heard.

A few years back whilst travelling with his Lordship on a business trip I found myself at a loose end in Paris.. as you do!  Not wanting to wander around aimlessly in the cold January air I headed for a place we knew and liked. It was a zinc bar but they served the most wonderful coffee and cakes. I took along a book and settled down for some chill out time.

As the morning wore on the place began to fill up until all of the tables were taken. Just as I was ordering another coffee and a round of the most delicious gateau they had, an elderly lady asked if I would mind if she joined me. I gave her a welcoming smile and answered in my appalling French that she was most welcome. Clearly she realised that my command of my neighbours language was not up to muster and addressed me in English.

"You are here for a holiday, yes?" She enquired.

"Something like that, I am visiting with my Husband, he is here on business." I replied, taking in her immaculate hair and make up. Parisian women are particular about their grooming. Although clearly in her late seventies or even eighties she was beautiful and she had the most amazing hazel eyes that met me with an interested gaze. She glanced at my book and then smiled,

"Please continue, I do not wish to stop you,"

"No I can read anytime." I said putting the book in my bag.

"Ah a heady pleasure not to be taken lightly, being allowed to read is having the opportunity to feed the soul, yes." She said as she raised her gloved hand to signal the waiter.

I have no idea why, well actually if I am honest I do, but I was drawn to this lady, her elegant appearance was enthralling, but for me it was something else, a chance encounter with this lady felt, well it is clumsy to say, but like fate.

Her order arrived and I noted that she was drinking chocolate with a small glass of cognac on the side. She laughed and I blushed, "your's will be here shortly, you finish your coffee and they will bring it,"

" I didn't order one,"

"No, I did, when in France," she raised her cognac and took a sip then dabbed at the corner of her mouth with the napkin and smiled.

We chatted about my time in Paris and as we both drank our chocolate and cognac we relaxed into each others company. She was not a native of France after all I discovered, she was originally from Germany she came to France after the war and married a Frenchman who had fought in the resistance, they never had children and they had settled in Paris.  I don't know why to this day, but it seemed natural at the time, I asked her what it was like in Germany during the war. She took a deep breath and then took off her left glove, I was shocked and to be truthful I felt as though I was about to cry, (it could have been the cognac), a faded blue line of crude numbers and a symbol, a star, were tattoed onto the inside of her arm. She must have seen my shock and once again my embarrassment, she took my hand and squeezed it. For the rest of the morning and into lunchtime she told me her story.

She had been born Rachel, (she never told me her surname), she had been in love with a young man who worked for her father. When the Germans began rounding up the Jews and putting them into the ghettos they tried to escape, a few hours prior to their attempt they consumated their relationship. Their escape attempt was thwarted by one of their neighbours who told the German soldiers. Her lover was shot and killed, his body was left in the street where he had fallen as a warning to everyone of the consequences.She was taken by the soldiers to the local headquarters and 'interogated' for two weeks. She was then taken back to the ghetto and lived there with her family for the next four months.  Rachel had to walk past her love's decaying body to and from the factory in which she worked producing ammunitions under forced labour. Whilst his body decayed her's carried new life.

One morning in the early hours she and her family were awoken to the screams and cries of the families in their block being rounded up and forcibly moved from their homes into trucks. The men were separated from the women and children, her younger brother Jacob was thirteen years old, he went with his father. Rachel and her mother were put into a truck. She never saw her father or brother again and she never found out what happended to them. Over the following months Rachel and her mother were moved to various holding camps. Eventually they were put onto a train and arrived at Auschwitz.

It had not been easy, but with the help of her mother and the other women with which they travelled, Rachel had managed to keep her pregnancy hidden.  You may be thinking why would her mother condone such a disgrace... I asked the question on your behalf. So many things are different in such times, why would she have given herself to the man she loved before marriage at risk of losing her soul. War has a way of bringing clarity to some situations. She gave birth to her son in Auschwitz, her mother clasping her hand tightly over Rachel's mouth to stifle her screams. They managed to conceal the baby for two days. On the second day as they worked in the sorting room, sorting the belongings of those who had been sent to the gas chambers, the baby was discovered by one of the supervisors. A man who was himself of the same faith but 'employed' by the guards to supervise his own kind. He made Rachel put the baby onto the floor and in front of her he stamped his foot down onto it's tiny body. It was gone. leaning into her he whispered softly, "you would both be going to the gas chamber now if it were not for me."

Rachel and her mother survived for several months, then during September of 1944 her mother collapsed on her way to the sorting rooms. That was the last time that Rachel saw her. On January 27th 1945 an eerie quiet befell the camp, the chimneys no longer belched their disgusting plumes and Russian soldiers marched through the gates to liberate the occupants of Aushwitz.

I have to say I was a mess by the time she had recounted her story. Then she put on her gloves and invited me to attend the service at Notre Dame. I remember I shook my head, "you are a Jew!"

"It is not the place, or the manner in which you pray, it is what is in your heart, will you come with me and see?" She asked.

20 at confession:

mapstew said...

I think you were indeed blessed and privileged to have met such a Lady. Thank you for sharing her story with us.



English Rider said...

How much more you would appreciate a book, a prayer or hot chocolate with cognac from a perspective shadowed by those past experiences. Thank you for sharing this encounter.

Happy Hour...Somewhere said...

My brother is a pain management physician and one of his patients is a lady who survived the Holocaust. She is entitled to some sort of monetary compensation and she so could use it, but the bureaucrats will not give it. How you look them in the eye, see the tattoo, and then act like a pencil neck geek is beyond me. She is in such pain and yet is a happy person. I have begged my sister-in-law to write her story for the local paper (she works with my brother). Her story is worth telling and somebody should be ashamed of themselves for not helping her when they have the means.

Anonymous said...

St. Jude,

You are eloquent as ever. How incredibly touching.

Just wanted to pop in and say "Hello"

Nikki - Everybody Can Just Bite My Ass - now defunt blog LOL

St Jude said...

Map - I was indeed privilaged.

English Rider - Everytime I drink hot chocolate I think of her.

Happy Hour Somewhere - It is so sad to hear that she is still going 'unnoticed' and without the help she needs.

Nikki - What can I say, I am so happy to hear from you again, I wondered where you had gone. I missed you. Any thoughts on coming back... to blogland? It would be great to hear from you again hun.

Diney said...

I was absolutely and utterly drawn into that tale which you told so well. What an amazing encounter - it sounds almost like a film noir sequence but, tragically, it really happened. We must never forget.
My husband is Jewish.

Pat said...

She must have seen something special for her to confide in you. I can't imagine she would do that often.
As for her mother I think rather than disgrace - the baby would represent hope for the future - she had lost her son and husband already. It is a heart-breaking story. Fortunately no-one is in earshot as the babies fate undid me.

Pat said...

I told MTL this harrowing story and when I came to the last bit he said 'Yes the baby would have cried,'
Was the man who killed the baby human after all or simply a monster? What do you think?

savannah said...

I knew as soon as I saw your intro that this would be a story I needed to read today. I am grateful for your sharing and even more grateful for knowing you, sugar. Thank you. xoxoxo

St Jude said...

Diney - as the remaining survivors get fewer and fewer it falls to those who know their stories to keep them 'alive'.

Pat - I've thought about the man that killed Rache's baby often, and to be honest I am not sure where I stand. In some respects he did save her life, but in such a callous way, he could have been more humane in terms of how he ended that young life! Then I also wonder, how would any of us react in such horrific circumstances when death and the threat of it is surrounding you. Fortunately I am not his judge that falls to a higher authority and perhaps a more forgiving one.

Savannah - Thank you for reading it and I am also grateful for knowing you to hun.

tNb said...

I must admit, I did sigh when I saw your warning of a long post. But I kept reading ... and reading. And then I stopped and sat in silence for a moment. Thank you for sharing this story, a beautiful woman with courage and strength that we simply cannot imagine.

St Jude said...

tNb - I'm glad you kept on reading, her story needs to be heard.

Maggie May said...

Just reading this makes me think my troubles are light.
What a waste of so many lives.Can you make any sense of it and why is that type of thing still going on today?

Nuts in May

ModernMom said...

I read this with tears in my eyes...

Kim said...

Thank you for sharing her story with us St Jude... I'm sitting here in tears, this story has me remembering my Aunt who was an Auschwitz survivor, the evidence on her hand and the horrific secrets she must have kept mostly to herself and hoping she came across someone special like you to share them with.

PS please forgive this faux pas- NIKKI old blog buddy! I miss you too!

St Jude said...

Maggie May - you are one of the strongest people I know, never make light of your courage. I agree that the human race appears to have a very dark side.

Modern Mom - I know it is hard to hear these stories sometimes but we must for the sake of those who suffered.

Kim - I'm not special hun, I just love people, no matter what they are capable of doing, I try to see some hope. I'm sorry about your aunt, somethings are kept buried deep for survival.

I think perhaps we should start a bring back Nikki campaign. I really miss her.

Kevin Musgrove said...

Thanks for sharing that.

And thanks in proxy to Rachel. The most harrowing stories are told quietly in human places.

St Jude said...

Kevin - You are welcome. You are right to point out that this is indeed Rachel's story. I am only the story teller.

Chris Pittock said...

An extremely moving story. I visited Auschwitz about 5 years ago with my Father. I still can't talk about the things I learnt there. Such inhumanity is beyond belief. I don't think I will ever understand why!

@eloh said...

I always wonder how these people made it through. A strong will to survive and live to tell their story.


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